Fear & Trembling
This series of drawings was inspired by reflection on Kierkegaard's Fear and Trembling, and was my thesis exhibition at Biola University. The drawings, which are charcoal and acrylic on wood panels, range in size between 3' x 4' and 4' x 5'.
The artist's statement is at the bottom of the page.
Not all struggle is violent. Perhaps most often it is simply weathering blow after blow, the cooperative endurance of body and spirit.
For me these drawings are about the fights that make us who and what we are: the self against the other, man against divinity, spirit against body…even against itself. I find I cannot draw a line distinguishing the physical fight from the spiritual struggle--I can only attempt to describe it with marks rubbed out and etched in again.
You may trace echoes of ancient battles in these drawings: Jacob wrestling the angel. Abraham and Isaac resolving to make the unthinkable sacrifice. Christ agonizing over the cup he could not pass. Odysseus making his strange, slow journey home.
You may resonate with more recent layers of meaning: enduring past pain in athletics. Deferring rest to finish a project. Carrying on through grief without despairing. Simply getting up in the morning and making it to the end of the day.
Our struggles find a parallel in ancient myths, through which our own can be understood. Paradoxically we then grasp the meaning of the myth through our own struggle, like a line drawn, erased, and traced again.